Shifting Paradigms

If you judge people you have no time to love them.

 

Mother Teresa

 

 

Classes began this week with bright eyed, dreary eyed, and those blinded with boredom entering our domain. After the introduction, course outline, viewing a short clip from 'Ferries Bueller's Day Off '- skipping techniques, sadly going over most of their heads, except one bright light that asked if she could use this, I said if the modus operandi works, try it. It would be unfair to admit that the lower level classes are a struggle for me, emotionally, physically, and intellectually. I asked each student to introduce themselves with one new piece of information that we might not know about them.  

After the third Filipino student stating that they were from the Philippians, it took everything morsel of my being not to send metaphors, after verbal ironies into the air waves.

 

I walked to the back of the class, shook the deleterious mindset, and decided to seriously question every students words, watching how the class reacted. Their responses soared with each query, they were holding the conch, at the helm of the ship they saw a captivated audience, moving from anxiousness to commanding mastery in seconds, shifting the paradigm of a classroom.

 

'Walk Humbly with the Lord' posted in my room keeps my pride aligned daily, to see the miracles, I call potential in all students. It seems to take them longer each year to find themselves, truly comprehend who they are in Christ. Rid the adverse affects of what society has allowed them to believe they are worth. Many enter with a metaphorical percentages of their self worth stamped to their forehead, others wounds of home life, bullying, and the torment of insults.

 

Prayer commences each class, again too many students think it is for them, it is for God to seep into our lives for an hour and show his glory, his compassionate love for each one of us. My student learn early on that literacy is Christ's mode of entry, for they will never remember me, yet I pray they will remember those around them that have changed their lives.

 

There is rarely a day that something profound doesn't occur. When our eyes, and hearts are open to see his miracles, we are his instruments and should celebrate. As Ferries stated -  life goes by pretty fast, if you don't stop and look around you'll miss it.

 

 

 

It is not how much we do

but how much love we put into doing them

It is not how much we give

but how much love we put into giving.

 

Mother Teresa

Reflection

Ghandi watches me daily observing my daily reflections, comparing his diligence to mine. Have I done better today than yesterday, grown closer to Christ, grown stronger as a person for man kind, or reverted to my complacency. Ah! this too often feeds my soul, especially as I age, my strength of youth hood wanes. My judgement wanes too or is indifferent, for the energy to fight the good fight as it lingers in memories. The defences are few, justification flood my mind, only my moral conviction stops me short of blaming another for my weakness. How is it this occurs, it didn't happen over night, but now that I am so conscious I fight like a drowning victim for dry land.

Potential

 

Mid-afternoon our living room is flooded with sunlight illuminating an acrylic painting splashingmintgreen, apple red, orange, sunflower yellow, sky blues, and birch trees as the day awaits my intentions.The luxury of having a moments to reflect, look out onto the horizon and dream. With the world waging wars seemingly so far off, this is where rejuvenation occurs amongst collected thoughts, steeped in my gratitude for what I have been provided. It seems illogical that this existence

of simplicity, is so spiritually rich. God has provided so graciously for our family. Mother nature blessed us this morning snowing lightly as our feet trudged up mountain paths filling our lungs with new blueprints that will not leave an imprint when we are gone.

An Indian comedian spoke about that if all human slept an hour longer each day, it would substantially decrease the destruction of our earth. I have held onto his words for decades rising simply to observe my breath, my thoughts, and my surrounding. Nature has nourished me since birth, blessed with parents who brought it into our existence daily. Design is innate, I think in tessellations , contours, prisms hoping to find opportunity to expose students their creativity through these mediums, along with a healthy dose of music, which abundantly teaches us all.

Water lilies exposed themselves to me at three with scents, blossoms, patterns, reflections, surface tension in their floating leaves, now that was magic. Nature has continued to mesmerize my soul. Loving the fact that most will never know I've walked, hiked, climbed in front of or behind thousands as I try to leave no mark.

With a society that is so keen to explore the unknown, seek the unheard, and taste the bazaar, if we could all do this knowing what ever we created couldn't have a large impact for the many generations to come, perhaps those are who should be receiving the Nobel Peace Awards. I recall our first microwave and the hundreds that ended up in the dump......now think of all the technology in the last 20 years, how much have we thrown out so easily never thinking about the impact of mother earth, how much can she absorb, decay, and break-up, now create similar technologies without the path, that is worthy. What is the future of the water lilies?

The Gift of Receiving

The idea of receiving a gift seems almost unnatural. I have always told family and friends, that it isn't necessary, most occasions are off limit to giving me a gift. Their company is always more than enough.
Last night a friend came over for dinner and brought me a box of chocolates. I believe it was my first box of chocolates wrapped beautifully for Valentines, even in January, and I was taken aback. Design is my second nature and this box was uniquely wrapped with ribbons, stickers and even a tote bag, my heart fluttered yet there was an unknown, a lack of certainty, control.
Perhaps it was more a lesson than anything, in my humbleness to never need anything I was losing out of the ability to receive. To allow others to give. Many of us love to see our friends and family members light up when we've bought them something. Knowing it was exactly what they wanted, or knowing it was unexpected and they truly needed a boost that very day. While feeing joyous, I immediately sensed a hollowness in my years of not being able to receive. I had unknowingly rejected, and undervalued people when I had refused gifts, for decades. I sensed my husband looking over my way as I tucked the gift away smiling. He had tried so many times to give me something of his desires, and I had insisted that I didn't need him spending hard earned money on me, how I had failed to see his love language and his yearning to do something special for me. It didn't strike me until last night that in all the gifts I'd given, if people had forbidden me, I would have been devastated. I was robbing people of the exact sensation I loved in giving.

The selfishness of my independence, is as far away from Christ wishes for us to be in relations with others. My need to be in control, to think less of others than myself and not sanction myself to be vulnerable to someone else, that cared enough to share a gift with me, was sinful.
The gift was truly not as important as the gesture that was acted upon. Relationships deepen when we receive without judgement, and blithering excuses, that destroy joy. Sounds odd yet it took us time to eventually open the box and savor every morsel of salted caramel cashews drenched in dark chocolate.

The lesson she taught me was invaluable, there is a maturity, humility and appreciation in receiving. I needed to linger in that moment and allow the giver to cherish their moments too. The giver receives as much benefit from the gift as the receiver, an internal bliss. From this day forth my efforts will commence to receive graciously.

Our society is funny, when I compliment colleagues, women often tell me that the item is old, cheap or not in fashion. I'm always struck at how others struggle with compliments as much as I do. Perhaps in our desperation to be independent, which is truly a North American thing, we are distancing ourselves from one another's blessings.

When the rare and unexpected happens leap for joy and relish in the moment. I've read that euphoric sensation we feel does wonders for our entire body, from blood, to nerves, to organs. It springs forth juices of wellness that satiates, and coats the body in dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin and endorphins warding off illness while proving delicious nourishment for our cells. How often have you every heard of anyone practising that butterfly feeling we get. It usually last 5-10 seconds yet with practise you can stretch it out to minutes. The next time someone asks if you've exercising, tell them your bringing forth happiness.

“Gracious acceptance is an art - an art which most never bother to cultivate. We think that we have to learn how to give, but we forget about accepting things, which can be much harder than giving.... Accepting another person's gift is allowing him to express his feelings for you.” 
― Alexander McCall Smith, Love Over Scotland

Goodness

The simplicity of the word "goodness" often eludes us as we search for bigger accolades in honoring those so deserving. As our society stretches to find new cliché we often lose the essence of humility. When travelling through Africa the most profound statement I heard from an elderly gentlemen strolling along a sandy Sunday afternoon was, "The saddest time in a man's life is when he doesn't need a neighbor." The statement has punctured my soul deeper each day as we strive so desperately in our western cultures to prove our worth. Yet, we live in a society riddled with depression, loneliness, and suicide by many wanting approval, for their existence. I observed hundreds of children in Africa with absolutely no possessions but the cloths on their backs. I found profound depth and goodness in them, it was I that so longed for them to come home to Canada and show us pure joy, laughter, forgiveness, hope, appreciation, gratitude and humanity. I'd been sent there to collaborate with teachers and administrators and within days I was brought to tears by their ingenuity, genuine care for their colleagues, I knew I would never look at life the same.

In our race to compete in every aspects of our lives we've lost the earnest ability to see one another's humanness. Our desire to be loved for who we are doesn't seem enough. Many are more concerned with a list of letters, awards, abilities, honors, and even praises. What happened to goodness, pure goodness,

Tomorrow look into the crowd and honor each person for their goodness, that you may or may not see, but in all of us we are seeded with love, and if allowed to flourish it will bloom. It's a state of mind that we choose each day to reside in, even in the complexity of our lives. When we search for goodness it is ever present in each and every moment. See it in all people you meet and it will come alive.

Hope

Peter might not have believed it was possible to have hope for an alternate path. He followed with many doubts keeping focused, with constant prompts heaving his life into the storm only to have it saved again and again and again.

Today with the knowledge we have, his wisdom, evidence, we continuously falter in our faith, looking to this world for answer that will never come. I explain to my students that throughout our lives if we keep his word, prayer, fellowship, and holy spirit in the center of our focus we will fall, and he will be there with arms open to catch our bodies, tears, minds and souls. Difficult as it might be, the sooner we learn that this world will never satiate us, the sooner we learn to be enveloped by his love that is completely unsurpassed.

My grade 12's are reading "Night" and I'm humbled by every word, every deed a human race can be moved to preserve their minds, their souls, and their existence. How can one have hope knowing in the end you will die, or is that the simple task having hope because you know?

I am challenging my students to form a chart that will allow them to learn about their culture, who is the dominant country, people and their purpose in crushing another race and for what cause? They are becoming aware, terrified, that as humans we are still doing this to one another with few positive results. So why haven't we learned from our predecessors? Oh! we have, we just turn a blind eye claiming our agenda is above those of the past. Is that why Putin was allowed to host the Olympics and then invade Ukraine, Trump spews hatred yetis revered by millions, Isis kills tens in France and still exists, an endless list ensues.

Hope, it allows us to rise each day knowing 90% of the world does believe in goodness, even when we cut one another off racing out of the church parking lot and curse, whilst the rosary hangs from our rear view mirror. We are humans and everyday we need to remind ourselves, pinch ourselves, that in this wild wonderland we call earth, there is a deep purpose for hope to exist.

It allows us to see past our present reality,  into a realm unworldly, unfathomable to most, but not you. It brings a plan, a method to our value and worth. If we look for blessings they appear minute by minute, if our hearts are open to them, we are flooded, in our patience there is abundance. Help one another in gratitude, respect and treat others are you would like to be treated. That is hope.

Pause ---for light thought

Blame my father for illuminating the morning skies, saffron sails billowing intense blood orange/fuscia with hints of indigo momentarily captured in real time. Light, a moment that eludes most of us that rise daily, work on our minds, missing the brilliance of God's creation for us. Our five senses have a new years resolution for you.....to use them. Crunching of snow beneath the tires. Lift of a backyard bird pleading for a mate, neighbors coffee wafting across hedges, hands forming snowballs, drinking cold mountain fed waters, and frosted willows begging to be photographed.

Living room perched watching clouds configure, deconstruct, compose sweeping melodies, is grace I'll never take for granted. Minutes pass admiring the aqua marine ebb and flow onto the stage expanding, enveloping my frame deepening my breath to know this might be my last. Blinding light forces sheer curtains to only transmit Christmas lights in minute bursts of white light moving through a prism.

Luxury, a selfish entity that I cherish yearning so deeply to envelop into my being.

The late afternoon pillows grey slate gently rolling over coral palates seeping opal hues at the ends
bringing warmth after a satisfying ski day taking the last run with the ski guides looking into the sky yearning to trap that essence into a bottle. Now you can, that fleeting moment of wonder bubbling up can be reproduced for health, spiritual wealth, and clarity of the moment. Rein act your first kitten, first bike ride, holding someone's hand, kissing, knowing someone loves you....pause....and bring those sensations forth, daily, they ignite our endorphins, spark oxygen within lasting infinitely in our minds. Absorb the senses this world offers daily, in the midst of plights, take note, and rejuvenate.